Female Led Relationships

The final query I shared with Goddess was my discomfort over being allowed or not allowed to cum. When I approach orgasm I always inform Goddess of my impending release, in a matter of fact way. Goddess then decides whether my pleasure should be prolonged to orgasm or terminated, and Her decision always applies. I recently referred to my rules on this, and note that the situation is not explicitly covered in the rules.

I explained to Goddess that I felt awkward informing Her of my pending orgasm, because it felt as if I was telling Her not to let me cum, or to let me cum, either way telling Her something, rather than simply awaiting Her instruction. I explained, with some difficulty, that I was not asking Her to allow me to cum, or to not allow me to cum, and that I was happy for that to be Her decision, but that I did not want to be appearing to impose a decision on Her either way.

Goddess said that She is happy with the current arrangement, and that I should always continue to tell Her of any impending orgasm, whereupon She will decide, at Her complete discretion, whether to allow me to cum.

Again I thanked Her for such clarity. I am happy to know that I am acting in accordance with Her wishes, and that my opinion or desires in this respect are not relevant.

These problems have been troubling me for a month or two now, and I am always reluctant to raise Femdom Supremacy issues with Goddess least it be interpreted as ‘topping from the bottom’ or being critical of Her (Last time she judged that I topped from the bottom I rolled a painful six).

I guess on this occasion I handled it better because Goddess was not critical of my raising these issues, and the talk helped to bring clarity and an improved relationship.

That very night in a long steamy session involving a lot of licking on my part, and a number of turns with Goddess on top of me (which recently is emerging as Her favourite sex position) Goddess finally allowed me to cum in Her, and then lay back while I cleared away a substantial week’s worth of output.

As usual I did not enjoy the taste or sensation, but knowing that She knew I was not enjoying it made the experience truly rewarding.